Miscarriage and Grace

When I found out I was pregnant in August, I was so thrilled to share the good news with you.  Of course, a small voice told me to wait to blog about it until I was further along.  But I’ve always thought that miscarriage was something I’d want my friends to know about if it happened.

So it’s with a heavy but peaceful heart that I share my miscarriage with you.  Remember my post a few weeks ago about my doctor saying “Oh my gosh” when she saw my ultrasound?  Turns out what she saw then (an empty sac) didn’t develop into anything else over time.  When I went back last week, the same dreary ultrasound picture appeared.  No heartbeat or tadpole-looking baby.  The sac again was empty.  My pregnancy was unsuccessful.

I was so sad to hear the news.  But I believe God authors life and that He knows exactly what is best  for my family.

My 4-year-old son has been so excited about the baby.  How could I tell him?  God gave me a great idea when I looked at the popcorn we had just popped in the microwave.  I showed him a kernel that hadn’t popped.  I said, “See, we put all of this into the microwave and some of the kernels just don’t pop.  We don’t really know why.  Well, mommy’s baby didn’t pop.” 

To my relief, that explanation has worked very well and isn’t it true?  Sometimes our babies don’t “pop” to become the babies we expected.  But I thank God He has a plan.  Without my faith in Jesus Christ, it would be very difficult to face this miscarriage and the miscarriage I had 2 years ago (at 26 weeks). 

I had a D & C at the hospital on Thursday and all went smoothly.  At church on Sunday, we sang a song called “He Knows My Name.”  I was so touched because that song spoke to me…God sees me and what I’m going through.  I’ll close with some of the lyrics by Tommy Walker:

I have a Maker, He formed My heart

Before even time began, my life was in his hands

He knows my name, He knows my every thought

He sees each tear that falls, and He hears me when I call.

Advertisements

5 Responses

  1. Arelene – I’m so sorry. I’m so thankful that you have found peace and strength in your faith in Christ.

  2. I am so sorry to hear this. You are in my prayers.

  3. thank you for sharing, Arlene… thinking of you!

  4. I found your blog a few months ago through a friend, but I think you will remember me from church several years ago! I am so sorry to hear about the loss of this little one when you have already experienced such loss. A phrase comes to my mind for you that the Lord spoke to me a few weeks ago, “you are not forgotten.” May your children continue to bring you comfort and the Lord, grace.

  5. Thank you for your kind comments which I appreciate so much!

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: